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Post by NerdiestKen on Jul 7, 2024 4:27:04 GMT -6
NerdiestKen's Forum turns 5 ![](https://media3.giphy.com/media/WRL7YgP42OKns22wRD/200.gif?cid=b92a3d88ajijgj65xcsww6t1wnw17p6xggr9l62332dbk294&ep=v1_gifs_search&rid=200.gif&ct=g)
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Post by Megan on Jul 7, 2024 14:25:13 GMT -6
Yay! Happy birthday!
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Post by NerdiestKen on Jul 7, 2024 14:51:57 GMT -6
Megan Thanks! Since stepping foot on Proboards in fall of 2003, I've been through it all.
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Post by NerdiestKen on Jul 19, 2024 7:17:38 GMT -6
Changed the board name from Gaming Chat to Gamer's Paradise.
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Post by NerdiestKen on Jul 19, 2024 18:38:55 GMT -6
The topic boards from the forum topics II board moved to a single topic board and renamed it Let's Talk.
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Post by NerdiestKen on Jul 20, 2024 8:52:03 GMT -6
Threads: 3,761 Posts: 25,662 Categories: 3 Boards: 6 Sub-Boards: 37
Update(s) The primary board count is 6 Miscellany board is retired NKF Essentials board is retired Sub-boards are moved to their respective primary boards Fun facts sub-board added to the Our World board
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Post by NerdiestKen on Jul 30, 2024 10:23:57 GMT -6
Hey y'all, what's going on?
I usually give you updates about my forum and who are the top 5 posters here at NKF, but today it's not the case. I'm here to say that my mental health, as I'm making this post, is still screwed up because my mom went rogue in her phone chat with my aunt talking about what they see on the news with this police shooting going on downstate and being demanding saying that she wants to moving out of Illinois to another state, and she also keep bringing up this family drama that being created by her and her alone.
Over the weekend, she keep on bringing up her ex-boyfriend in a past tense in her phone chats and comparing things that are "too dark" this and "it's much brighter" that. Every single time she brings these things up to her inner circle, I felt like leaving my room and sit outside until until she stops talking. But last night while I was playing the game last night, I couldn't even focus and I couldn't even concentrate, I stopped everything where my score was 78,070 going into the next round of Blaster on the PS2. I shut off the emulator and then when mom finally ended her phone chat with my aunt, I said "Please!," because she's been on the phone being so dramatic for over an hour.
After my mom's phone chat ended, I was on the verge of breaking down crying. In the past, she was being nice to me and thanking me for doing errands while she's out of town and in the past, she displayed her meanness by belittling me, lecturing me and bullying me for trying to do what's right and trying to fact check her. IMO, she's becoming the Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde of her own kind and lately she's been going postal with her attitude she used towards me, and also trying to hurt me.
During my struggles with mental health, I wish someone would say to me that you're loved, you're wanted, always be yourself, always be you and it's okay not to be okay. But I wish the people I know online would say these exact same words to me. Hiding my mental health struggles is the worst thing I've ever done in my life and I didn't have the heart to tell about it. Not even to my mom and not even to my friends. If I hid my struggles from y'all, please find it in your heart to forgive me.
Thanks for listening 💚
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Post by tea4me on Jul 30, 2024 10:37:15 GMT -6
NerdiestKen, sorry you're going through all that. Wouldn't it help to tell your mom what you are going through? And do you have to live there? I know you don't work. You should know that you are loved and wanted. ![:)](//storage.proboards.com/forum/images/smiley/smiley.png)
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Post by Can't Think of a Name on Jul 30, 2024 12:00:35 GMT -6
Wouldn't it help to tell your mom what you are going through? I don't know the full story and all but if Ken's mom is mentally ill it can be totally, completely and utterly impossible to deal with a mentally ill person. I come from a mentally ill family myself and parts of what he said about his mom is like mine. I had to move back in with her and dad (which he's no longer around now) and I've spent years trying to fix their legal messes. How can that be when mom is supposedly the only member of the family fixing things? Yeah, that's what she's said before and that's total bullcrap. Like Ken I also can't work but that's due to chronic fatigue, which is another example: humankind has had hundreds of years to find a cure for what I have but can't. I've been to literally 24 doctors (more or less, I've lost count) and I've never spent a day in medical school so this is MY fault? That's been the family attitude, as my dad was very lucky to die at home rather than in prison (where he belonged and deserved), my sister still might not be able to go anywhere in Europe due to possibly still active warrants out for her arrest and I got my own mom nearly fired from her job years ago from laws she was breaking too. Yeah, and all of you are better than *I* am? No you're not. Anyway, good luck to Ken, it isn't easy whatsoever, to say the least.
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Post by tea4me on Jul 30, 2024 12:19:44 GMT -6
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Post by Can't Think of a Name on Jul 30, 2024 12:30:15 GMT -6
I didn't mean that I was ragging on you or anything, I was just replying. Just giving examples. If you meant the 'Yeah, and all of you are better than *I* am? No you're not.' part I meant that towards my family, not you, case it sounded like that.
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Post by tea4me on Jul 30, 2024 12:59:26 GMT -6
Okay, whew! And I'm sorry that you've gone through crummy stuff as well.
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Post by Can't Think of a Name on Jul 30, 2024 17:24:28 GMT -6
Thanks. And glad we're seeing eye-to-eye on this now. I would say that you'd KNOW if I were ragging on you but, alas, you can't be abusive on Proboards (poo! I just can't have any fun here ![:P](//storage.proboards.com/forum/images/smiley/tongue.png) )
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Post by NerdiestKen on Aug 3, 2024 4:21:51 GMT -6
Almanac sub-board added and all threads moved to that new board.
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Post by NerdiestKen on Aug 4, 2024 5:32:23 GMT -6
This week's top 5 posters tea4me - 3,174 Zenlethic - 1,337 Melcharge - 664 Dazzal - 643 sundaydress - 485
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